when the emotion wave hits in the night, it makes sure it doesn’t leave until i give in.
that was what happened last night when the lights went out.
An episode of ugly crying , i couldn’t stop. It was exhausting and aching. I dozed off through it, only to wake up twice (again) through the night.
Both times were due to dreams. The first time was okay, i manage to return to sleep seconds after. The second time left my thoughts high in the air & emotions stirring for almost an hour.
I am okay , my mind’s saying. So i choose to believe.
It’s not that hard for the mind to brainwash, to blockout. Living in denial sometimes is an easier way out.
Can’t stay this way for long, but it’s alright. For now i am okay.