the talk about the past last night could still make my heart quiver.
10th September 2012, it was the day where “Free Yourself” is etched onto me forever to serve as a reminder to let go of what happened on boxing day back in 2010. Never have i regretted it once.
I have put down the self-blame, i have stopped punishing myself by drinking heavily and stopped crying to sleep countless nights over the incident.
It doesn’t fade away, the memory.
Meanwhile, the bucket of emotions is filling up again. Woke up feeling heavy, it’s like i have to go back to putting on a false front again.
I really want to get away from that growing bucket of hell.