Paxidorm is working for me, such joy. My mind manage to cave in to sleep within an hour of tossing.
It’s so much better than tossing for hours, definitely.
I was so moodless on tuesday that even after a shower and breakfast, at the last minute i changed to my sleepwear and crawled back to bed, giving school a miss.
My motivation came to a haul this week. It hasn’t been a productive week , the guilt is eating my insides bit by bit.
Every module is getting harder and it’s demoralizing when i can’t grasp the concepts immediately.
I felt really depressed on Wednesday afternoon and i wanted to find Koey / AJ to talk , but they were studying for exams / not in school respectively.
I was so close to having a breakdown in school, i was terribly afraid of myself, of everything. I locked myself in a cubicle for like fifteen minutes before putting a poker face and head to class.
That few minutes in the cubicle i really wanted to vaporize.
poker face me have been juggling well this week, keeping up the necessary expressions, making sure the real me doesn’t appear and ruin everything in public.
I had bad cramps yesterday, gave school a miss again.
Yes, i missed two days of school this week. I am not proud of that. I solemnly swear i will push myself to not miss any more classes.
Keeping myself at home this weekend because my room is the safest.