i’ve finally set an appointment to see my psychiatrist next monday (after much hesitance and reluctance).
Been suppressing those unhappy , unhealthy & uncomfortable thoughts . I tried to numb everything and feel stoic through the week.
I kinda imaginating how much stuff will i unload to my doc about, probably a lot more since it’s been months since i last visited.
Plus i feel more comfortable with Mom not coming along (i didn’t tell her when i am going). No mother wants to hear her daughter having suicidal thoughts right?
I know i have worried her and my family enough. I feel useless and being a letdown too many times.
I hope my doc will also prescribe other medicine for me- new friends since the old friends are not exactly working for me, especially Atarex.
Need to swerve my mood and emotions back on recovery track. Slowly. And hoping the anxiety and paranoia will minimise along the way.
I an a long term worrier , sigh.
School load is getting heavier. I am still not managing my daily revision well. I am plagued by the complexity of the contents & being a slow (& forgetful) learner makes it worse.
I need more time and i need better (smarter) brain cells .