Fluoxetine and Clomipramine , my best friends who have attractive names.
“They are no good for you. You shouldn’t consume them.”
Me: “They are the only ones left that can save me from wanting to die.”
“I trust that you can consume them responsibly.”
Me: “I trust my mind it won’t get attracted by death through overdose.”
last night, i dreamt that i was treading in waters and dolphins appear, it was a friendly encounter. And the next thing, i was dragged beneath the waters.
I couldn’t remember what happens after that, i think i died.
I woke up, had a crying episode and i felt like dying.
The thoughts, they won’t go away. And it’s agonising. The pain, it’s hidden there. The sadness, it’s growing out of sight but never out of mind.